Art.

I did something today that I haven't done in a long time. I dusted off my beautiful 35mm SLR Canon camera and realised how much i missed being a photographer.

For two years of my life I spent it working with my head in a sketch book dreaming up ideas of what i wanted to create. For a very brief moment there (well most of those two years) I doubted that becoming a journalist was what I wanted. For those of you who don't know me, my whole life the only thing I ever wanted to be was a journalist. Yet I took the 2year photography course because I didn't know what else to take and well because it seemed like an easy choice. Definitely not easy, and it opened my eyes to a whole new world. A world in which you can create exactly what you want.

There was nothing I loved more than taking my camera, going out, and taking photo's of anything that made me smile, made me frown, was ugly, or pretty etc. It was a way for my to express myself through the images I chose to take.
Whilst studying the subject a few of my favourite Photographers included Fashion Photographer Nick Knight whose work screamed high-end fashion with a pinch of fantasy. Dream-like if you will. And the work of David Lachapelle was mesmerising and enchanting. His work oozes colour and draws you away from your world and into his. His fake, crazy, insane work of art.

Whilst I adore being able to express myself through words, there's nothing quite like using an image to speak a million words. Because in alot of cases, images speak the words we are too afraid to say

I Love You

I Hate You

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

So Christmas is now officially over. It's not quite time to take the tinsel down and put away the tree but it is time to start thinking about what the next 12 months are going to be like.
Every year we make these ridiculous resolutions to ourselves and after a week (maybe a month tops) they've fallen to pieces. For me New Years is a time to reinvent yourself, with a good excuse as any to make decent and important changed to your life. It gives "A fresh start" a whole new meaning. This years going to be different to past ones. I'm not going to fool around with unachievable and insane resolutions.
My usual resolution list tends to include the following every year
* Vowing going to go to the gym twice a week
* Eating more healthily
* Not spend so much time on Facebook
You get my general flow, they're not exactly what i would call... meaningful!?
The past, maybe 4 months of my life, have been crazy, insane, eventful, exciting and disheartening. It all made me put my life into a different perspective and it's given me a different outlook on what i want from my life. Granted I'm 20 and how much can i really want from life right? But I'm a very emotional and impulsive person and that for one can make life more than a little interesting.

So this year there are just a few things on my to do list.
> I intend to take small steps to mend rifts in my past which affect my life now
> I want to let go of all the small things that upset me
> I'm going to take every opportunity that comes my way.

I believe in fate and destiny more than anything else. More importantly i believe in my destiny and that everything in my life happens for a reason. So this year I'm not going to force fate and predict my destiny. Because I've already learned... You rarely get anything you ask for.

Simply, In 2010, I'm going to let things happen

One moment in time

I've been neglecting you all. I'm so sorry
But I'm back, and goodness me what an eventful few months it's been. Or even an eventful few days.

As seasons change and pass me by i look at my life and ask myself where has it gone?

I really felt like I have learnt a lot about myself the past few months. Something has changed. The dynamic's of my life have shifted considerably and put things into a new perspective.
I had battles with friends when i was least expecting it, and I'm not going to lie, it threw me completely. I wondered for so long, how could someone who meant so much to me, just change and cut me out the way he did. Even now it's not the same. And it wont ever be the same again. I also wondered how one of my closest girlfriends could just disappear from my(or rather everyone) life for weeks on end without so much as a word. Was it something we did? Something we said? Or something you had to deal with alone?


I recently let someone go from my life. And it's so weird because i would have done anything to avoid it, yet it had to happen. He was someone i clicked with. Someone who made me smile and laugh, and I've not had that for a long time. I also want to thank him. Because without realising he taught me a lot about myself. I don't know how crazy its going to be... but i feel like... something, a chance has passed me by.

I dont know what has compelled me to write this today. I feel like something has changed and i cant quite put my finger on it.

I'm not sure if this blog has much sense. It's short and sweet but I just needed to write

Until next time my beauties, i shall be drinking myself into a merry state and enjoying the sweet vocals of Florence & the machine <3