Sunday, 16 August 2009

I left my heart... In the Highlands


'Where is your favourite place in the world?' My answer without hesitation, is Scotland. No matter where I'v been before, New York City, Jamaica, Africa, nowhere comes close to Scotland.
I've been coming to Scotland for... aslong as I can remember. Every holiday whether it be Christmas, Easter or Summer we would spend them in Scotland. Sitting on aeroplanes as early as two, looking for the care-bears hiding in the clouds, I remember it as if it were yesterday. Perhaps its because we (me and my two sisters) basically spent our childhood growing up here, that i feel so.... Patriotic about this country.

I'll start from the beginning. My mamma, Angie, was born and grew up in The Outer Hebrides, on a tiny little island called Eriskay. Having to learn English at school her first language is Gaelic. Talk about Scottish right? As one of nine children, i have aunties and one uncle a plenty! My mum was the only one to move South so natrually we have more than enough places to stay when we go to visit.

We would usually visit Edinburgh, were most of the family live, and it’s the one city in the world to make me feel so alive. A city bursting to the seams with character, the charming dated look of the city and the delightful accents are just a few features that contribute to this beautiful city. Every time I book my flights and I know im headed to Edinburgh I feel a surge of excitement I cant explain.

This holiday was different however. Just a stopover in Edinburgh provided us with just enough time to cram all the family into one afternoon (it was a miracle!). From there we hit the road and travelled north. And boy do I mean north. After travelling through ‘The Kingdom of Fife’ and ‘Perthshire’ we hit the Grampian Mountains, and I was hit by a view I had never in my short 20years seen before. The sprawling mountains into the distance, the hilltop houses standing alone in a field of wilderness, the sun setting into the distance, it actually for once, rendered me speechless. For I wondered how on earth I had never seen such natural beauty before. My book lay untouched next to me as I struggled to take my eyes off my surroundings. Little did I know what lay ahead waiting for me, for 1 hour north of Inverness we eventually reached Sutherland, our home for the next week. We had finally reached the Highlands. Here roads are not roads, they are little bendy lanes sprawling through the scenery, every corner you turn you come across a Loch, every second you are surrounded by cows and sheep (never in my life have I seen so many), everything about this place is different to the South. Everything is better.
From spending my days exploring Loch Ness (no, as hard as I looked I couldn’t find Nessie), to taking in the beautiful golden sands of hidden beaches and travelling to the most northern point of the United Kingdom (John O Groats) and taking the ferry out to The Orkney islands where we spotted the cutest seals in the world, everywhere I went I was fascinated. Pictures of these places just do not do it justice. You have to be here, to see it, to smell it, to really see its true beauty. The hidden waterfalls just a ten-minute walk from the cottage, the most beautiful little stream just outside my window, the baby Calves playing in the field across the stream, everything was perfect. I was even woken one morning by a cow moo-ing outside my window!
For me it was so exciting to experience this kind of life for a week. For I would never have realised it was here if it wasn’t for my mum bringing me.

The entire week has just made me fall even more in love with Scotland then I was before I left.
So there you go. Now you know my secret. That I am indeed having a secret love affair with Scotland and you know what? I don’t think its ever going to end.

Wednesday, 5 August 2009

Addiction

Sex? Drugs? Alcohol? Music? Sports? Work? Shopping? These are just a few of the countless addictions many battle with every single day. It's got me thinking, Whats my addiction? What do I feel so passionately about that I have to do or else I get all clamy and nervous about. It didn't take me long to figure out the answer. Writing. Whether its Blogging, writing an article, whenever I have a pen in my hand or I have to many thoughts I write.

There's a fine line between passion and addiction. What defines the difference? Surely you must be passionate about something you have an addiction for? Before I really thought about this I would have said I have a very deep passion for writing, and I do, but my addiction, its in me. My emotions, my thoughts, my dreams, my desires, for me its imperative to get them out into the world. I'm a very emotional person, very creative, very imaginative and its all reflected in my words and my writing.

But addictions can drive wedges and destroy lives. Addictions can kill, in the most tortured way, watching someone suffer at the hands of fate and a person not having the self control to control their addiction.
You would never take a pen away from a writer, take a guitar off a musician, take a football off a football player, take a boat from a sailor. So I often wonder why we justify taking a drink off an alcoholic? I don't in anyway condone Alcoholism, its just merely a question I wonder when put into this certain context.

My Writing makes me feel excited. My mind overflows with ideas, creativity seeps through every inch of my skin, and my fingers tingle when touching the keypad on my computer, I feel completely on top of the world because more than anything, I'm completely satisfied with what I'm doing. Am I weird? Or would you say that you have similar experiences to your addiction?
I feel incredibly blessed to be able to write as a career, because if I couldn't, I honestly havn't got a clue what I would do. I mean, I cant shop for a living can I?

I ask you, what do you feel most passionately about that borders on addiction? What couldn't you live without?

Monday, 3 August 2009

Sexy in the City

We despise them, we loathe them, we love them, we hate them, were amazed by them and we want revenge on them. Yes I'm talking of a game between sexes which is becoming just as much about women as it is about men.
The game? Cheating!
What makes a cheater? Is it right to have a passionate love affair? Can a cheater make a relationship stronger?
It often makes you wonder, when did cheating more about love and less about sex. For at least half of everybody who cheats claims 'but I fell in love', and perhaps some of them did.
Sex is everywhere. Every club you walk into. Every corner you turn. For now every innocent drink you buy for someone, the game is raised, and nobody even cares 'if you are already spoken for?'.
If you think about it, there's a significant difference between one night stands and a full blown love affair outside of your committed relationship. On all levels its hard to forgive if they continue to go back for more.
I've had the unfortunate experience of being hurt in this way myself. But lucky for me it's always a deal breaker. If you cheat, you get out. That's the way I see it, but for those in real long term relationships, for those engaged or even more so, for those married and with children, theres a lot more at stake, and a hell of a lot more to lose.

A question I have in the back of my mind is, can cheating make a relationship stronger? Could it make you sit down and re-evaluate the relationship and find out whats going wrong, whats missing, and where it can go from here. Perhaps it doesn't always mean over, maybe it means stronger?
However in some shape or form, a hurt lover always wants revenge. Either that or they believe karma comes back around. Because in this world nobody gets nothing for free.

Men, Women, Lovers, Partners, Husbands, Wives, Children, Brothers, Sisters, Parents are so often caught in webs of lies which threaten to blow apart lives.
The next time you cheat, dont think about getting your rocks off. Think about the heartbreak your causing at that exact moment you slip between the sheets.

10 Guilty Pleasures

The thrill. The excitement. The pleasure. The pain.
As humans we naturally seek out what makes us tick. We enjoy it and allow ourselves to travel to new heights through our pleasures.
Below are a list of...a few of my guiltiest pleasures....and a few I know you can all relate to.
BUT, can you guess which ones are my personal favourites? I may just suprise you.

1) Watching someone fall over in the street.

2) A secret lover. A lover who nobody knows anything about, your little secret, your pleasure.

3) That extra half an hour's sleep in bed when you just know you should be washing your hair.

4) Winning. The thrill that you've beaten someone else? Nothing like it.

5) Paying £100 for that pair of boots you know you dont need, but want.

6) Secretly knowing that part of you would rather be Samantha from Sex and the City rather than Carrie.

7) Spending the day in bed with a partner...When you promised friends you would see them. Naughty!

8) Singing along to the Spice Girls. We know you love them. Fact

9) Being so drunk you cant stand. We know its not good... but who cares!

10) Obsessing over someone you find hot. They never going to know... so obsess away!